Its sunday..the kids are at brians moms.  Friday night we went to the neighbors house and played Gestures.  its where u have to act out the word..it was the guys agianst the girls....halarious!  omg it was sooo funny.. i had to drink (4 drinks) in order to play.. bc im so self conscious that i wouldnt be able to get up there in front of everyone if i didnt!!

Yesterday brian and i just hung out.. watched some movies and went to the store.  Went to bed at midnight...today we were supposed to go to the coast and go fishing--it doesnt look like thats going to happen..its already 10:30am and he is still sleeping.

Im at a point in my life where i feel like i dont know myself anymore.  ..thinking things i never thought id think.  its not me..but who is it?  i mean i know im bipolar..but come on..the meds are keeping me stable right now..so i dont think im manic...but why am i thinking these things?!!?? im on MEDS!!!!

I just know i have to focus on my home and kids and school and my health and brian...and leave the rest out of it before i regret my actions..we start school on the what...4th..not this week but next week..i cant be having other things on my mind...